Now, for some explaining. So, I still have yet to understand the opposite sex. I tend to run, duck for cover, and put golf balls at them, all the while hiding my face so no one can see me. Ugh...We went golfing tonight for our "THE" (Tuesday Home Evening) with the ward...all the while a guy tried to hit on me the entire time and I kept trying my best to avoid eye contact and to shoot him down. Well, it worked for now. He even tried asking me out, and I wormed myself out of it...So awkward. Now, when it comes to someone who I might actually be interested in, it seems as if I do the same exact thing...avoid eye contact, shoot him down, and feel completely squirmy when it comes to talking to him. Yikes. Am I really a helpless case? I vote yes.
Anyways, there is so much more on my mind. I still have no idea what to do with my life!! I desire an education, perhaps even a master's degree if time and money permit so, at the LEAST a Bachelor's...But really, where? What? When? How? I am also thinking of moving out. But money is always an issue. Besides, this past week, my Dad was laid off from his job. Ouch. I'm sorry Dad. Kind of scary, too. Even for me, that could put a damper with what I wish to do, so I could perhaps help support my own family, which if circumstances call for, I'll do it. I think the really hard thing for me right now is that I have been home from the mish for 3 1/2 months now, and I am just so ready to start my life. But I'm not quite sure which path to take, let alone when it will just take off. Real life is just hard. N'est-ce pas? Okay, I'll step down my soap box. I ought to just rename my blog to "Erin's soap box." It would be appropriate, wouldn't it?
eRin! I had to laugh at the comments you made about the guy section isn't it funny how the mission'll do that to you? You just naturally avoid all contact possible w/ them. Don't worry about not having live happen or it going quite yet, it'll all fall into place, maybe the reason things haven't happened yet is cause you're supposed to be here right now and there's something specifically for you right now :) AnYwho. we need to play soon. it' been too long :(
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