Never Say Never

Lesson Rule #27 : Never Say Never.  You know, it seems just about the time I say that one letter word, is when it comes flying around and biting me in the bum.  Shall we took a look at what I have said "never" to?  

1. "I will never live in Idaho."

2. "I will never work fast food."

3. "I will never return to my high school job."

4. "I will never live in New Mexico again."

Those are just the beginning of beginnings, and only about the fourth one, thus far has yet to come true.  But...let's go back a couple days, shall we? There I can further explain...

I have come to love my little nanny job that I am currently working at.  Better yet, the family said that they would love to keep me until the end of the year...which in January I would be planning on leaving to BYU-Idaho anyways...(There's the return to the statement #1) so it would be perfect! Now, all I need is another part time job so that I could earn a sufficient amount of money for my schooling...Hmm, I also need a job that would be flexible, willing to give me time off when needed, pay well-enough, and also give me all the hours that I need...Hmmm...Let's see...if I go to, let's say, Job A, it is a fixed schedule, no flexibility, couldn't work as a nanny as well, and minimum wage.  It seems that Job B, Job C, AND Job D are the same situation...So, as my mind began to contemplate what to do, statement #3 pops in.  But this time, it feels so right.  Not only that, but I could feel the spirit testify to me that that is exactly what I needed to do.  It is the strongest impression I have received on regards to what to do with my life for the moment.  So, I went in this morning, and I have got my old job back.  At the dub.  Yes, my dear friends and family, and friendly internet stalkers, I am returning.  So wish me luck, give me a pat on the back, because surprisingly enough, I feel really happy about this decision and very excited, whereas if you told me even just a month ago, I probably would have thrown something at you.  So, there it is!  God has some great humor, but I truly do believe that He is very much in the detail of our lives, and I have a feeling that I don't even understand the slightest portion of that very phrase.

Bored.

It's raining. It's pouring.  I'm afraid to say I'm snoring.  So here I am.  Writing in my dear 'ol blog.  So...I think I am starting to put some puzzle pieces together.  It's not 100 % certain, but still.  I think I AM going to go back to BYU-Idaho after all, and I AM going to continue studying graphic design with a minor in  advertising.  I was talking to my old mission companion's husband and he was telling me that if he could re-do school he would study graphic design because all the job interviews he has had requires some knowledge about it.  He told me that before I told him what I was thinking of studying, so when I did tell him, he told me that that was a strong combination.  Cool.  But yes...I have out-ruled UVU because it doesn't really hold the programs I am looking for, and BYU, let's face it...My grades are awful and I don't know if that's really where I want to be, either.  So voila.  I haven't told a lot of people about this, because it's not hundred percent certain, but it's the choice that feels the most right out of them all.

Well, what to say?  Life is kind of a stand still for a moment.  I mean, I'm still doing the nanny gig, I am still not yet in school and probably won't be until January 2010 ( insert sad face ), I'm still getting all my friends married off, I'm still single...I'm still...I'm still...what else would you like me to add? So...I'm just waiting for the "pick up" of life to come along and get this party started.  I'm ready to move...ready to do something new and beyond that which I've ever done.  I don't know what that is, but it definitely isn't this routine business. But to throw things off for the week, I've decided to boycott the MTC.  :)

The highlight of the week thus far is the fact that I FINALLY bought things while shopping.  Horray!  I bought one skirt, three shirts, a tank top, and a hoodie.  I mean, is that incredible or what? Before I was buying the following:         .  Yes.  There is no invisible word there.  I have been failing at shopping just until yesterday. Donc, voila.  

Okay, I think it's time to end this here.  I'm off to go find something to do...Hmm...Man, I've been doing this "finding" stuff a lot more as of late.  Well,  got to start somewhere! :)

Brazilian Angels

...So.  I have decided that I cannot ever again watch "the Errand of Angels".  You know, that sister missionary movie?  Yes...I cried at the end.  It made me miss my mission so much! It just gave me that much more of a memory of what my mission is really worth to me.  I would give anything to just go back out...Being home is so overrated!!  Ahhhh...I mean, now I got this real life business to deal with.  Not cool.  Look at me, I think I only use this blog to complain.  Okay, so on to something else...

Well, I had a great miracle this past week.  One of the many ones was when I was at the MTC and I was coming out after just having volunteered at the TRC (Teaching Resource  Center for those who don't know) and on my way out, a senior couple and their teacher stopped me.  They were from Brazil and practicing their English, for they were preparing to become a mission president in Brazil.  There English was so simple, yet the purity of their testimonies and the simplicity of it all, touched my heart so deep, afterwards, I cried on the drive home.  The power and the truth of it sunk so deep in my heart.  The gospel IS true! Jesus IS the Christ! He DID call Joseph as a prophet for our days!  So simple, yet it was so profound.

Blessings are coming into place, I am starting to see them...and I know that there are a lot more that the Lord is waiting and ready to give to me.  I just have to be patient.  But man! That movie killed me, today! Being home is awful...I miss the mission more than anything.  But life goes on.  As I have been reminded over and over again, this is just the beginning of my mission here on earth.  There are other things that the Lord wants me to do, other things He needs me to perform for the salvation of His children.  I can do it with His help.  With Him, I can do anything!  I just got to keep going! Keep the path and with cheerfulness, bear these burdens and make it towards Him.  Well, that's all for now.  But I can tell you one thing, I know that Jesus is my Savior and will guide me through all these hardships and bring me the blessings that are waiting in store.