STILL, but good.

I'm kind of interested to see what will come out of the tips of my fingers for this blog...All I know is that I have a desire to write, and that I shall!

Really, nothing has changed.  Truly.  I am STILL working at JCW's.  STILL not in school.  STILL single.  STILL just the same 'ol me.  But I'm loving it.  Despite what it may seem, I am still having fun.  Granted, often times than naught, times get rough, things don't work out, black fades into gray, and the wear and tear just seems to not hold quite right.  But I'm still pressing forward. :)

The Lord has given me so many wonderful blessings.  I am so grateful.  I am also starting to try to reflect on the gifts that have been given to me...and to be honest, I haven't been so diligent in trying to magnify them or increase them, or even improve upon them in the slightest.  I think it's time to get out and just work at it.  I need to stop holding myself back and just go for it.  Hmm...I think I have some goals to go out and set....   :)  

Short and sweet and to the point.  Ciao.

Gratitude.

Wow. I just feel so blessed.

These past 6 months of being home from the mission, honestly, has been very difficult. I feel like in many ways I've had to start from square one and pick up many lost and scrambled pieces and fit them back together. Well, it's taken me a lot of time to find some, discover others that I've never seen, and glue the pieces that I do have together. It's quite the project, I must admit. And to think that I still have a loooong way to go before the picture is complete...

It was rather interesting the other week, I was struggling a bit and decided to change my frown upside down and count the blessings instead...Once I did, I found that Heavenly Father had been answering many of my prayers. I was so amazed! He truly does listen to us and knows us so personally and desires our happiness. It has been so incredible. Words can't even describe...

One of the many blessing that I've received has been regarding my jobs. I've been working two jobs, averaging 48 hours a week which has been really stressful on me. My life was just work, work, and work. No fun. So I had been feeling like I needed to stop my nanny job, and felt like that was what I needed to do to allow the stress to depart and just to open up my life a bit. But I had no idea how to tell her I wanted to leave, because I didn't want to leave her in a bad situation with no help. I mean, 5 kids under the age of 6 isn't easy...But surprisingly, she was the one who had been feeling like I was stressed and a bit burnt out and she had been praying to know how to help me, and it just turned out that things opened up with her schedule making things more flexible to find someone else (if I so chose) and she approached me about it, and I told her how I'd been feeling and needless to say, my last day is this coming Tuesday. :) It was just so amazing to see how Heavenly Father knew both of our needs and just made things work out. He is so amazing.

He has blessed me in so many other wonderful ways. Wonderful friends, supportive family, even the very job that I do have. It has just been wonderful. I just know that He has so much more to give to me too, as long as I keep doing my part. He really is in the detail in our lives, and I think I'm beginning to catch a glimpse of that. ;)